Last week I mention how I didn't really feel my need of Christ, but as I read this week I felt that God gave me answers. It's like he knows exactly what I needed and the journey that I'm on. As I was reading I came to the point of wanting to say with David, "Search me O God, and know my heart."
I know this is a very familiar verse and I've heard it a million and one times. However, it wasn't until today that I felt it; that it stuck a chord within my heart. I haven't been ready to bear all to Christ. There are parts of me, of my heart that I would say, "No, let's not go there." I was scared of what I might have to let go of, scared of what might be found. I'm still scared, but now I'm ready. I'm ready to begin that process, ready to let go, ready to be broken, ready to be brought to repentance. I don't know where this will lead, but if I want to connect with Christ I have to give him all of me. Just like with my friends, if I'm always hiding a part of me from them I will never gain a closer relationship with them. Why would it be any different with Christ?
So now I say, "Search me dear God, know all of me, of my heart, and lead me on this journey of life." And I know he will.
"The sinner may resist this love, may refuse to be drawn to Christ, but if he does not resist he will be drawn to Jesus."
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