It is so amazing how God gives us exactly what we need when we need it! The last few days were a quite an experience at the Campus Ministries Convention in Georgia. I felt a call and pull on my heart in such a way that I have not felt in quite some time. I thought I had my life planned out and knew what was going to happen next. I'm going to get a job as a teacher, work, live the standard life, and do what I can for God on the side. I know it sounds so... lackadaisical, but that is truly how I felt. Reaching out for Christ was not number one on my heart or in my mind. Yet, during these last few days, like a ton of bricks I felt it.
The impression was clear, reaching out for Christ and sharing him needed to be my number one priority. The other stuff; that would come in time. It is not that the career path that I have chosen is wrong, it's that my order was wrong. As I have drawn closer and connected with Christ this year, it is becoming clearer and clearer to me that I want to truly live for him, holding nothing back. No longer saying, "God you can have this part of my life, but not this little piece over here." I want him to have it all and completely transform me, with a new heart, a new spirit.
Now, I don't know where this leaves me. What I once thought I was so sure of, I am now unsure of. I want to live a life with Jesus as number one but I'm not sure where that is leading and I'm scared. John 8 had the perfect verse for me this evening, verse 12, "Then Jesus spake...I am the light of the world; he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life." I know there is a ton in chapter eight and honestly some of it confuses me, but tonight God wanted me to read that verse cause he knew I needed some assurance. My heavenly Father has a plan for me and by his grace I intend to be apart of that plan.
Tash you are a woman of grace! You're words and your message here tonight is just a tiny glimpse into just how extraordinary and astounding you are - truly a woman of God whose whole being longs to follow after Him. Words can't express how blessed I am to have shared this past weekend and road trips with you. You are a lifelong friend that I cherish as I confidently know that God crossed our paths this semester for a specific reason. Continue to follow after Him and the rewards will far exceed what you could ever imagine and know that even when it becomes difficult to have the strength or faith to pursue after Him, I'll continue to be right here, lifting you to the throne of our Savior and Lord through prayer that you would be renewed and restored as He constantly works to transform you to the likeness of Himself. I love you and I'm so thankful for you!
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