I remember a point in my life as a Christian where I felt I had all the answers. I was so sure of where I stood on everything, I wouldn't even have to think about it. That time is far passed. As I study now, and as I seek to become closer to Jesus the less and less I know. There seems to be this great vastness that I before never knew existed. I feel as though I am groping along in the dark, spiritually blind.
The last few weeks I have really been struggling with a few questions that have started popping up around me. I don't know what I think, believe, or feel. My mind is in utter confusion and in all honesty it scares me. Is the issue really that important? What if it is? Will I choose the right belief? Is there a right belief? What if I end up on the wrong side? Is there a wrong side? These are the questions that plague me.
In John 9, Jesus says something that I believe pertains to what I am struggling with; verse 41, "Jesus said unto them, If ye were blind, ye should have no sin: but now ye say, We see: therefore your sin remaineth."
Before I felt like I had all the answers so why did I need Jesus? Now, I know that I really cannot see and so I turn to Jesus. I don't have the answers but I know he does. So I put my trust in him asking for guidance and for clarity and I know that he will not lead me astray.
"I came into the world to bring everything into the clear light of day, making all the distinctions clear, so that those who have never seen will see, and those who have made a great pretense of seeing will be exposed as blind." -John 9:39 The Message
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