One of my biggest spiritual fears is that I'm going to get caught up in something that isn't true. I'm scared that when I'm standing before Jesus in the judgement day that he's going to say to me "I never knew you." The thought of it depresses me and I agonize over how can I know, how can I not be fooled by wolves in sheep's clothing.
I've really been struggling with these thoughts this week. I've had so many questions and just seemed as though there weren't any answers coming my way. I felt so close to spiraling out of control and just giving up. But Jesus had something for me this week.
After reading chapter ten in John, I am convinced that this is not to be my worry. I have to have complete faith in Christ and know that he will not allow me to be led astray. The story of The Good Shepherd was such an encouragement to me. Jesus says that his sheep will not follow a stranger. His sheep will only follow his voice. This is when it hit me. I have a father in heaven that loves me and wishes more than anything for me to be there with him. This is why being connected to Christ is so important. This is why I have to know him!
By having a connection with Christ and by knowing who he is, I will know his voice and not be led by a stranger or some strange doctrine. It's hard to let go and put complete and utter faith in Jesus but I have to. I have to let go and stop trying to control my own destiny.
"I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep. But he that is an hireling, and not the shepherd, whose own the sheep are not, seeth the wolf coming, and leaveth the sheep, and fleeth: and the wolf catcheth them, and scattereth the sheep."
Jesus is the Good Shepherd, not a hireling and I don't have to worry about the wolves because he will not flee , he will give his life that I may be safe! So why am I worried?
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